I am diagnosed 9 years this month and I still haven't accepted it. I know and understand I need meds daily but I detest taking the 2 I'm on. I hate the fact that I'm no further forwarded than I was 9 years ago. I'm trying to stay on my meds as I'm an non-complier but it's so hard when I don't want them and detest them that much. I hate the fact that even on meds I'm still ill I mean how can I have mania or depression if I'm medicated. I hate people knowing a lot about my mental health..... people have access to medical records. The list goes on