I think the consequence, or punishment as you say, is not so much a result of being honest but of your other actions. Going to your ex-therapist's office drunk and asking to see her suggests significantly lowered inhibitions and impulsiveness. You acknowledge yourself that you have an obsession. When obsession, lowered inhibitions, and impulsivity collide, it is a recipe for disaster. I don't think she could have agreed to work with you again knowing all that was at play.