Am I the person that is holding me back?

I keep saying I don't know. Is that holding me back?? Is the fear of not knowing what to say, is that holding me back?

These are questions I need to face.

Can I face them in this depressed state?

I am sui at least once a day for the past few weeks. Or that's how it seems.

I am close to hospitalization. I ah e been for two weeks. Maybe three. It's been too long. I took time off from work. But I can't take time off from school. I need to work on my final project but I just can't face my past. Not yet. I need to heal more.