Thank you all for being there to read and just "be in the room" with me. Yesterday was busy and overwhelming at work. Today was much better. My mother came over and we cleaned my house. She recognized pretty quickly that I was anxious.
Thankfully she didn't do that thing that she does where she harps on the fact that I take meds and that they are not good for my body. Mostly, I did nothing but cooked and relaxed. My living space seems much more controlled and that is helpful. I feel better today.