((((((((((((( Impala )))))))))))))

I have to agree with Perna....this situation and questioning the intent of your friend is not doing you any good. I think what it comes down to is accepting the fact that you cannot know her intent and it's time to let it go. You have questions in your mind that you feel need clearer answers, but even your friend doesn't seem to have clear answers as to why she is not ready. If she can't give you her full intent....you cannot possibly figure it out yourself. You can go round and round and round with this forever and a day and still never have a defining answer.

You, yourself said she lashed out because of her depression etc. So maybe she can't tell you now what is going on because she is still in the process of her therapy and figuring things out. She can't say hurtful things to you because maybe that is her true self and the lashing out really was out of her illness.

There comes a time when we have to get our heads and our hearts to come together. A time when you have to realize that you have done everything you can to rekindle the friendship and to get the answers that you so crave...but find none. A time when you have to pull yourself up and let go of this friendship as it has turned toxic on so many levels right now. A time to realize that not only has she hurt you, but that you are hurting yourself also by not letting go and moving on.

I know it's a process.....and it can be a long one. Grieving over a lost friendship takes time, patience and work in order to move on. Be good to yourself Impala...you deserve that much! The energy you are putting into this can be turned around and used in a more positive flow for YOU.

Through our lives people come to us and leave us.....that's the way life goes. From each experience we can learn and grow...maybe now is the time for you to grow! I pray that you can!

Please take good care of yourself.....smile and believe that you have done the best you could do.....now is the time for YOU!


sabby