Well start with writing a list of the things you question.

Is the sky blue ? Look outside ? it’s blue.. REAL, go sit outside in the sun. Feel the warmth.

Am I awake ? Pinch yourself , yup I’m awake . REAL

Does my H and son love me ? Ask them. REAL

Am I safe ? Ok doors are locked, my ESA would alert me if something was going on. REAL

Am I real ? Eat something , chew , taste your food , swallow. REAL

Can I pull out my coloring ? Can I color on the pages ? REAL.

Am I posting on PC??? Yes , people are responding. It’s in black and white.

This list could go on forever. But I know you can grasp the concept.

YOU and only you needs to take control of your life no matter how small you have made it.

It’s best to strip down and legit go back to absolute basics.

Do I exist ? Take a deep breath, touch a wall, take a shower, brush your teeth, make a meal, sit down and eat, clean up dishes, brush your Dog. Rearrange your food cupboards, dust , vaccumn, clean the bathroom. Check your pulse for 5 mines, count how many breaths you take in 5 minutes.

You need to physically get up and touch as many things as you can. Keep touching until you realize that indeed things are real , reachable, touchable.