I've been feeling suicidal for the last 4 days. I had a heart to heart with my Twin last night and we were both in tears. I wish my tears would stop. Feels like I've crying non stop since last week. I didn't tell her about hurting myself as I think I overloaded her with info last night. I made her promise me she would live a life if I wasn't here. I feel like I let everyone in life down with my mood. I hate this feeling. If only I didn't want to not be here