It's hard to give you a good answer, Buffy! I think what sarahsweets has already WONDERFULLY posted may turn out to be helpful to you. Just acknowledge that the Past is in the Past and that you can only change the Future. Just remind yourself that thinking too much about it won't change what happened in the Past. The Past is in the Past. So definitely acknowledge that! It's hard to move on but it can be done. Acknowledge your Feelings, but also acknowledge that it's time to move on for good. I am so sorry, I know it's hard to do that! Just remember that the Past won't haunt you forever and that you can FIGHT BACK and GAIN CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE... It does seem incredible sometimes, but YOU CAN DO IT! DEFEAT THE PAST AND FIGHT FOR YOUR FUTURE! I'm so sorry I don't have more useful things to say to you. Hopefully others will! As always, PM me or anyone else here when you need to! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Buffy01, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! KEEP IT UP!