Beautiful writing as always, my dear friend. I am just DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO BADLY! Please feel free to reach out to me as always. You know I'm ALWAYS here for you! t does get easier in my opinion. You just have to get through the hardest parts... but it does get easier at some point, and I hope it will be REALLY, REALLY SOON! Be kind to yourself, my dear, sweet friend! Sending many , warm hugs to BOTH you, Sò leigheas, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're huritng and struggling SO BADLY and that you're going through ALL OF THIS!