I’ve been avoiding posting. Because on Thursday, after one day of lamictal increase and Wellbutrin, I was feeling great. Not hypo at all, just finally like myself again. I was ashamed because I came on here and complained and whined so much. I felt like I had been over dramatic. So I’m sorry for that.

I felt good for three days and today I’m a bit down again. I didn’t think it was the medication working yet, I think I just got a natural break from the depression in my natural cycle. Before I was on depakote I used to get short hypomanic breaks in my depression episodes. I think the depakote kicked it down to normal happy functioning.

I’m hoping this med change helps me sooner rather than later. I don’t like the heaviness.

My SIL came up today and we talked about our problems. She’s having a lot of trouble with her new foster child and her marriage. So we talked about that. It was nice to have a distraction for a few hours.

Work is interesting to say the least. I’ve never worked with a student like this before. Aggressive, self injurious, and non verbal. He bit the **** out of the teacher on Friday. Broke skin and everything. The teacher had to leave and go to the workman’s comp urgent care to get a tetanus shot. I’m afraid of handling this kid. He requires two people to restrain him because he’s so strong. I won’t be able to take him on myself. I feel very powerless because I want to help and I want to be good at my job but I am completely out of my element.

So yes, that’s my update. Still feeling a bit down but more hopeful since I got those few good days.