I'm back from my trip to the u.s. I have a funny story to tell about it but I feel out of place posting a funny story here among all these posts - I don't want to be insensitive.

I'm officially on my target dose of Mirapex now (well for 2 days now) so I'll know whether it helps in a few weeks.

WC, I have faith that the Mirapex will work. I might need a higher dose later because this depression I'm in is really bad. I'll know in a few weeks.

My mood is unchanged but that's a good thing I think. It's better than getting really low and having a bad day.

During this trip I came to realize how much I think about being depressed, my medications, and my future. If I'm not thinking about that, I am thinking about the present and how the moment I'm in now will never exist again and the fact that my time in life is now changed and things will never be the same as they once were.

All those thoughts are not that good, I think. They're realistic and practical but they're not helpful in getting me out of this depression. The thing is I can't stop them when they come up. If I'm busy I can avoid them but they always come back. I think that's the depression doing its thing.