My life has changed so much. I often reflect on my life with my 2nd husband. That was my 20"s . After that I went crazy and it's been hard mostly ever since.

I'm alone. I'm struggling financially. I have lost my family and any hopes of having a family again. I'm now 45.

My life is just sad and difficult emotionally. I never had all the kids I wanted, I screwed up my son so bad he killed himself. My daughter loves her step mom which is good but hurtful though i know she loves me.

I just really regret my life choices and there's no going back. I don't know if I'll ever be happy.