Having a hard time with both at the moment... my father is 80 years old, and is at end stage COPD, his lung cancer has also returned, and now he has afib issues with his heart. I was visiting him today and he was having difficulty. His girlfriend of many years and he decided a trip to the hospital would be best, so they called the ambulance. It was very difficult to watch paramedics in the house assessing my father then loading him onto a gurney and wheeling him from the house. And now he's in the hospital again for who knows how long. I'm having a lot of anxiety over his situation and his eventual passing, which will be coming sooner rather than later. As the oldest of the kids I will be tasked with handling his affairs after his death, and that terrifies me, even though he has gone over things with me. I need a coping strategy for preparing for his passing.
As far as work, I got a job in my field in my town ( after previously having an hour commute each way), and I like the job, but my new coworkers are starting to show their true colors after a couple months and I'm not liking what I'm seeing. One factor is an age difference, as I'm in my 50s, and most of them are in their 20s. I find they are snippy towards me, not interested in learning about me as a new coworker, and I feel like they are always annoyed with me. Consequently I don't really engage with them except for work related things. They are causing me to second guess myself on everything, and that is a horrible way to go about the day. I am still on my probation period for another month, but am beginning to feel like I made a mistake. My field is veterinary medicine, and the doctors I work for think I'm going to be fine. It's been a huge learning experience from any other practice I've been at. How do I get my confidence back? Thank you in advance for any help or advice!!