Really down. I wanted to go to church this morning but couldn’t bring myself to wake up. We went to my mom and dad’s to celebrate my mom’s birthday. I was fine while there, but otherwise, terrible. Thanks for checking on me. I feel partially like my meds just make me constantly sleep and I feel almost rage over having to take them. I’ve never felt anything even similar to that before now.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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