The first time I was depressed was when I was 10. Then I was basically manic until 12. Then I became so anhedonic and then was abused until I was 16, became manic and slept 4-5 hours a night for a year, then started hearing voices and went psychotic then I was depressed and told my mom about it and she took me to a doctor. Then my step dad attacked me and I attempted suicide and slept 18 hours a day and was too depressed at 17 then got even more agitated than I was when I was 16, tried cough syrup at 18, did drugs in the psych ward, put on abilify and did more risky things then did research chemicals.

Then I did psychedelics and now I feel like I was before anhedonia.

I was laying in bed and couldn't do anything and now I'm ecstatic but I'll take the sleep meds and go to sleep cuz I learned to keep a proper sleep schedule or else I'm screwed.