It's Tuesday .2 days to go until the hospital. I have come to terms with whatever happens. Living all day in pain and having no method of release or alleviation is not for me.
I have been brave for many years and up until now have just put up with it.
Everyone says there's help out there go get it but never tell you where.
When it comes down to the pointy end of the stick there is nothing.

So in 2 days, I find out if /what life is going to be like. I'm a bitter old man as it is.

RL sux