I believed that I am straight girl for the past 23 years but out of blue I started enjoying lesbian shows and dramas. I even started imagining my life around a girl. I used to mastrubate to straight sex then but all of sudden I couldn't do it. What's my sexual orientation? I'm really confused.

My background: I'm from India compounded with a consevative family. I used to check on women but I don't remember checking them out in a sexual way and I've really low self esteem and never been in a relationship with any sexes.

Also does lack of emotional connect or any other psychological issues have influence over sexual orientation ?!