
Oct 15, 2019, 12:24 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
I think I've mentioned this elsewhere maybe once before, but when I was in a long hospitalization, my doc stopped all my meds because she wasn't fully convinced I had bp 1. Long story behind that and maybe I'll share it some day. Anyhoo, I did great for a number of months, other than some hypomania. Then, one day, I suddenly fell into a massive, dysphoric mixed episode with tons of anxiety and panic attacks and it was just awful. My psychiatrist, the one who had stopped the meds, was out of the country, so another one from a different unit came to see me to get my meds re-started. We talked about what had and hadn't worked in the past. She was quite thorough and very kind. Anyway, when we got to Wellbutrin, she asked me if I had ever had any problems with it before. I immediately said 'No." So, we got the Wellbutrin going. The problem was, I neglected to tell her I had before been floridly manic on Welbutrin some years earlier. I felt I couldn't tell her because then she wouldn't prescribe it and I knew from experience that when I was as bad as I was then, Wellbutrin needed to be part of the plan for recovery. So, I lied. Awful behavior. But sometimes, you gotta know how to operate within the system. And I got my Wellbutrin.
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Nah, it's not awful! When I was younger I used to play the psych system just a bit, as far as getting myself prescriptions that I felt were more helpful than the meds certain not-very-intuitive pdocs wanted to prescribe. I stopped doing that as I've become older; I am now completely honest. And there are some times when I think I would do well to revert to my younger not always entirely upfront days, simply because I know myself better than they know me.
Of course, back then doctors didn't have computers to check every date and refill.
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