I just wanted to see I what I was feeling was normal. So, I’ve been bipolar majority of my life. Just wasn’t fully diagnosed until about three years ago. Every single romantic relationship I’ve been in I start to have serious doubts about the relationship. Yes, there usually are stressor before these intrusive thoughts start. I’ve been with my husband 10 years, married 8. I have had doubts on and off throughout our relationship. But the thoughts never stick. I’ve recently started Lamotrigine. At dosage of 50 mg right now. I can off of abilify. It’s been rough. Maybe medication is causing thoughts? I started to have constant thoughts about not loving my husband, maybe I’m just scared to be alone, maybe I want to be alone, he doesn’t deserve this. But I know when I’m not obsessing that I’m crazy about him! He really is the love of my life. He is the only person I would fight this hard for against these thoughts. I’d never just leave, cheat, or anything. He’s really supportive as well. I tell him I don’t know why he deals with it. He tells me it’s not me. Does anyone have any experience with this? Or has ever heard of this? Sometimes I have severely high anxiety and other times I feel numb but the thoughts never stop. I want to be the BEST for my husband... please.