I know the feelings of being so afraid of what someone might do to you. It's the not knowing where their mind is at that is the most fearful part of it. I know that inside, the only feelings I have towards people like that is to beat the crap out of them.....but that just isn't realistic.

I know how angry I was that the police didn't do anything about the home care person who abused my Mother when she was dying of cancer & stole her ID while I was right in the house & then she had the police called to accuse me of abusing my Mother. After she OD'ed my Mother & I got my Mom back into the hospital, I stayed in her house 1 night until I realized I was alone & had no idea what this woman might do to me to keep me quiet after I reported her to Adult Protective services.....I remember the fear the morning I went out to the car & was going to drive to the police station to file a report with them......my heart was in my throat......her husband was supposedly a auto mechanic.....did she have the car wired with a bomb?......were the break lines cut?.......nothing happened, but she was in the car in back of me as I drove down the road to the police station. I never stayed in the house again & never left the hospital or my Mothers side for those 3 weeks......for fear she would figure out her way into the hospital & do something to my Mother.

Those people need to be stopped, but the sad thing is that they are allowed to go free & we are the ones that are their prisoners.......we aren't safe with them & it would be foolish to ignore the situation rather than to protect yourself.

The police are useless.....they wouldn't even go after the person who stole my ID & broke into my truck in Albuquerque when I was on my way to California just after Thanksgiving. The police make it sound like they are doing a huge favor for us, when they do absolutely nothing except sit in their company cars & eat donuts. They do nothing about the criminals, but complain at the high crime rate they are fighting.....they are fighting that because they do nothing to stop it.

I am angry at the police as much as I am angry at all the horrible people out there that are hurting those of us who want to just live a peaceful life just being left alone by the jerks.

I can so sympathize with you & hope this guy will be off the street. There are times when my frustration gets so great that I understand why people take the law into their own hands....not that I could do that....but it doesn't mean that I don't understand when other do.

Take care of yourself above everything else & keep a watchout....don't let down your guard even if it is stressful not to. I hope that this horrible person won't get you to the point where you feel it necessary to leave where you are.....but if it's the best thing......maybe that is why this is happening....the catalyst to get you to make that move from where you are because that is the right thing for you to do. One never knows......but moving might just be the right thing to do....even though it feels like they are winning.

Take care.....you are in my thoughts,
Debbie