Thank you so much for sharing about your experiences with ECT, @bpktvikesfan ! I'm happy to read that they served you well. Your situations did sound extreme. It is important for people to know that there is an option beyond medications, when medications fail us.

I, too, have read about and believe experienced the negative effects of bipolar episodes and psychosis on the brain. I experienced memory lapses from severe episodes. I think it's because such severe episodes are traumatic. When we experience trauma, the brain tries to almost "hide" some of it from us for perhaps our sake. Regardless, I was affected from my severe episodes, but I also healed in various ways with time.

I hope you continue to heal. Be well!