Doing absolutely horrible with visual vivid hallucinations....

I was in the hospital twice for a spell last month. Physically ill.

The hospital doctors, my PCP, and pdoc said I have an autoimmune disease...probably Multiple Sclerosis, Lupus, or Mixed Connective Tissue disease.

I’m using a walker at home. I’m falling down, severe weakness and fatigue. Horrible rash that worsens daily. Insomnia. A lot of pain. I feel and look like my body is attacking itself.

I am scared and still very sick and so anxious.. I am having a mixed episode with fully blown psychosis....very high stress from this and what my future holds triggered the mixed episode.

Someone tell me I’m not $&#@&#. Medicare fortunately let me enroll in a good PPO early (had a crappy HMO) and there is a treatment team near me and I’ve been accepted as a patient starting Nov 1st. PCP, Rheumatologist, Neurogist, Dermatologist, Podiatrist. Physical therapy. Fortunately all in the same medical group.

This is RainyDay btw. Having an account issue so I messaged admin for help.

Sending positive vibes to those that need it. I am only going to read on PC for now. But I will be thinking of you. This forum is my “home.”

RainyDay