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First, I am frustrated by the approaches to it. No one has a consistent thing to try. Some say keep saying mantras, some say let go, blah blah blah.
Second, though some positive things happened to me in September, 99% of them backtracked spectacularly in October. A lot of it by being kind and giving others trust -- which they (predictably) abused.
Every time I go to a message board to talk about it there is no one around, even reddit. Hardly anyone has anything to say.
I got the book "the magic" and I can't finish it. First I am just not grateful to the universe. I don't have much and every single thing I have I have worked and strived for. I have taken abuse, and did the stiff upper lip to get things that I have and, in fact, it always seemed like the universe was against me so no, I am not grateful.
Secondly the book is just this long grouping of exercises for me to do, leading me again to believing that many of the LOA gurus are just there to sell and give stupid busy work to people to make them think they are achieving things.
As I go down the never ending list of things I think in my head this can't be right because if it is a law, it shouldn't be this HARD. I should be able to call up want pretty easily. There are some ideas I will keep but most of it, no.
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