That was beautiful, fern46. Thank you for writing that. I will be along with you both with that flashlight and the ladder, pulling BipolarWolf back to brightness.

I know such desperation, BipolarWolf. I absolutely do. However, I'm telling you that life does get easier. Bad depressing times, mixed episodes, psychosis, and many other damned lousy painful as hell experiences ease. Don't let the illness kill you. It would then win, and you and everyone else who cares about you would lose severely. I know such a loss. We lost my nephew because of bipolar disorder. If only I could put on a search light and bring a ladder to fetch him, but it's too late. If I reach out to grab his hand, nothing is left of him to hold on.