I think it is time to be honest with your husband. The truth is you do have several warning signs that mania is creeping up. It has been coming on for days and new symptoms are showing themselves. You're going through a time of great change in your life with stepping away from work and it makes sense your mind and body are having this reaction.

Your mania sounds pretty severe when it happens and it sounds like your husband is trying to protect you and your family. You need to let him. His job is difficult and scary. Please don't male it harder for him. Tell him about your med changes and give him your keys. You could have found other ways to get to your meeting last night if you were thinking clearly, but you aren't. You are taking on risks that are unnecessary.

My great hope is that someone will see my pattern shift and give me the tough love needed to wake me up a little and nudge me in the right direction if I am ever hypomanic or manic again. I'm offering that here to you. Take action now. Don't put your husband and your children through more than they need to suffer.

You like driving in this state, so I'll give you a driving analogy. You're running all of the yellow lights and now they are turning red and you keep blowing through them. Get out of the car before you hurt yourself or someone else. Stay safe. You were smart to reach out here and be honest. You're trying to help yourself. Let that side of you win this time, ok?