Since my mom died last August I've been going completely downhill. Then a couple weeks ago I looked up an ex on the Megan's Law website...bad idea. Anyways, I've been suicidal and si'd since then. I'm a mess. My PTSD has returned, I'm stuck at age 14 or so (I'm 26) mentally and emotionally, and I'm often playing the victim role, which I need to get away from but don't know how.

So I'm regressing pretty badly...it could be worse...I guess. I need help to get out of this rut I'm in.