Really fighting the urge to text you this evening. Also wanting to 'forget' to pay again as you know I'm really on the ball with that and you will wonder why I haven't. Childish and ridiculous perhaps. Why can't I just tell you I am angry? Because it feels pointless. The situation is over, done and dusted, and nothing has actually changed. Except that something has, internally. I can't get past the hurt I'm feeling. Maybe tomorrow things will look better again and I will manage this. I hope so.