I am so sorry you are struggling, Birds. I was just wondering a couple of things. Are you currently on medication for your BP II? Do you have a current psychiatrist?

Have you looked into your county's mental health services? I imagine they would have some sort of sliding scale fee schedule for people who need assistance. You should definitely look into that. I got my care from a county for a year and a-half and it was very good. I did not feel short-changed in the least. And they had groups, as well, that I went to, some of which were excellent.

Thinking of you and sending you positive vibes.