I like what the others here have suggested as well.

Please be safe!

Also, based on the title of your post, I'm wondering if you are considered "undocumented"? If so, you have other rights as well, and there are immigration attorneys and emergency immigration agencies that can help in cases like yours. I've heard of the traumas that some of my former undocumented peers had went through, and how they feared seeking support because of their status. That is so sad because many of them want help but have a hard time finding it without being targeted. It's a touchy subject these days, and I really feel for everyone who is struggling with mental health symptoms.

Please, if you still feel suicidal, seek help! If it is something that is just a thought or feeling but with no attempts or plans, then you can explain that to the next person or agency you seek help from. But it sounds like you need a lot of help - more than most of us here can offer - because of the statement you made about "evading police."

You don't want to get a negative record on top of all that you are going through right now. I can understand your frustration with the system and the way they are handling things, but the only persons that can help you with such delicate and legal matters are lawyers, immigration specialists (if that is your status), police (you can contact the police directly and tell them your situation; they actually might be more sympathetic than the IOP, believe it or not), and/or a different emergency room or mental health facility that is open 24 hours. If you call a hotline, they are likely to call police, however. So, based on the info you've provided us, which is limited, I'm sure, the only options would be some of the above.

Please be safe and get some help from trustworthy sources. Please keep us posted on the outcome of those things. Who knows - you may find better help and better treatment from all of this. But no one will know how to help if you avoid seeking help or avoid explaining the full scope of what you're going through.

I'm so sorry you are in this position. It's scary, I know. (((safe hugs)))