(((((razzleberry))))), I have been trying to write an answer but what I want to say doesn't come out right! Someone said to me that sometimes it is a chemical imbalance in our brains and that we have little choice over how we feel at times, and I agree with him. There are times when things on the outside are going really great, yet I feel so low and bad on the inside. I may have no reason to feel this way, I fight it yet the feeling still remains. I have had to accept that without my meds I struggle to cope; and that for me is the way it is for now...
I wish you luck.