I have heard of people talk of coping skills but I honestly have no idea what that would be like for me. No one has ever taken the time to teach me that. Everywhere I have I have always been treated like "You've been here before you know the drill." When in fact no I don't know the drill. One reason I choose this IOP was because they said they were going to teach me coping skills. They never did. All they would do is address problems then that's that. "OK now that I recognize that's a problem how do I fix it?"
So I guess a good treatment would be 2 fold. 1 have someone actually listen to what what I'm saying. I want to be honest and say yeah I'm feeling suicidal and I want to die but I'm not going to follow through. And not have them freak out.
Then 2 teach me how to deal with this. Don't expect I know what to do because I don't. If I knew what to do then I wouldn't be here.
Yes I have dealt with this most of my life but no one has ever shown me how to. So I've just kept it bottled up and on bad days I just shut down. If that's what you do then I guess I'm good and don't need any help.
3rd one I just thought of ties back into the 1st one. I don't want you to care about my phyisical state I just want you to focus on my me tap state. I know it's hard to separate the 2, but if I tell you I'm feeling suicidal don't worry because of that help me figure why and how to stop it.