Some good thoughts from bpcyclist. I also had no idea things had gotten that bad there! Yikes.

Did you get your job since you've been there, or did you line it up ahead of time? I wonder if having a job with some more people around might help some(?) I hope you can meet the lady down the street with horses, I know you love them. Animals are great. Speaking of .. I'm so glad you have your doggie wirh you!!

I don't know if adult education classes are an available thing, but that can be a way to meet people and have a nice time too.

I believe in you. You ARE strong enough. It is hard, and will take time, but I'm sure you will get there. Many, many hugs...