I’m not sure how I’m feeling today. I am having urges to self harm and to cry but I am not depressed. I feel anxious, I guess, or something. Not sure. I do feel upset about my weight but I’m always upset about that to varying degrees. I’m also upset that RS went to a truck show today and is working tomorrow. My son wants to get a pumpkin but my back is tweaked so I don’t think I can lift one. I was hoping RS would be able to go with us but now he won’t.

I have to do a lot around the house today. Laundry, cleaning, etc. I’d really just like to go lay down but I really can’t, I’ve got too much to do. I have to go to the store and get cat food as well as the picky *** cats don’t like what I got them last week.

I hope I feel better as the day goes on.