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Originally Posted by Birds
You write so beautifully. I feel exactly the same way every single day for the last three months. I do want to be gone and I dont want anyone crying for me because IT IS WHAT I WANT ! I am tired of going through this cycle of being hypomanic and then depressed again. After that the different medications search to get me out of these states...
I dont want this all my life!!!
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Birds, Thank you. I haven't written in a very long time. I am not sure if there will be more to come. But I had to get It out of me. I have been very depressed and feeling so low that the only thing as you know that comes to mind is to end it all so the pain stops. But, I am reminded that the pain would never stop for others if I do that. I hope that we both get out of this hole that we are in. Fern has a flashlight for you also. Please take a moment read her post that she wrote me her on the first page.