hope all the best. Sorry, I didn't go back and read this time...
Quick update
Saw new t on Friday. It was a good talk.. but, I am still feeling out things, I am "shy" as some say but in some ways, I'm reserved due to trust issues In person a lot of times.. then anxiety to talk and show self. I do like this t so far. She reads others well. I am going to ask if the last 5 to 10 minutes we can work on grounding before endings sessions. .. Hoping that's not too odd of a request.

Today I've "reran" some moments in my head. I wrote them out. Tried to challenge some feelings and thoughts. This is old stuff with me doing, new t didn't know I already do this till yesterday. I took in one of my journals.

Today
I ended up canceling my float (float tanks) session this morning because I just.. I push myself a lot to get out of bed for work and go, especially this last week.., no one else is going to ever take care of me so I must, and I know I have issues living under others rules so again. I must ... this "activity for me" the float, I didn't seem to find important enough to push myself out of bed and I was running out of time to decide... simply laid in bed wondering why and do I really want to go, it's dark and not sure if itll help today. I can always try to squeeze something in.. I have an appt booked for next week already.

My goals today atm are simple
Take a shower, get dressed.
Go to grocery store with my friend.
Will see where the day goes.
I've been mixed a bit the last few days on "up but down" ... meh- this morning, just want to take a break from pushing and doing and going if that makes sense.

I will try to make apple pancakes once I get milk too... that's a good goal