My friend's neice is dying now. She is 44 and had a heart attack friday. She was going to get up and walk yesterday and go to regular cardiac care and she had a brain bleed. They took out a clot late last night and she regained consciousness with the family. I had driven up to get a baby who was there and take him home to sleep. I got home around 3 after everyone came home. The hospital is near where daughter goes to school. Normally 1.5 hours away but at night driving 70 an hour most of the way it is much quicker. I got a call 45 minutes ago that she had a massive stroke and she was dying. Family is headed back up. My friend is so brave. She lost a nephew 2 years ago and now this so unexpected. She had another nephew almost die and she found him not breathing. She gave him cpr and the hospital got him stable. I feel so sad for her. She would do anything for anyone and her sister is losing another child. Her sister has cancer from a breast tumor that her doc told her was nothing and I said get it biospsied.

It is unfair as my friend has seen nothing but death in her family. Her nephew's death was not pretty. This friend was raised with these guys as she is not that much older. Her sister cared for her when mom worked. My friend does not deserve this. Her sister does not.

The woman that is dying was just charged with financially exploiting a senior. This makes it more difficult as everyone wants to blame the investigator for her cardiac event and now death. She is guilty and there is no question. I am not really sad about the dying woman. I am glad she doesn't have to go to court and all. Her son died a year ago after shooting himself. He was 16.

Is there something wrong with me that I am not sad about the impending death? My friend and her family are all so very sad and shaken up. I am sad only for them and for the dying woman's surviving son. Am I bad? I like the dying woman but I just am not sad.