Hi coolsocks,
By BPD do you mean bipolar or borderline?
I can relate to much of what you said. My bipolar symptoms got significantly worse 2.5 years ago and my functioning significantly declined and I had to drop out of school which was a big deal for me. I still feel a significant struggle in functioning with basic everyday life. Do you have a therapist and psychiatrist? Those have definitely helped me... but the person who has been helping the most with my “functioning” has been my case manager who I’ve had for just a couple months now. May be something to look into. She basically helps me break down the specifics of what I’m struggling to function with, and then helps me make small plans to improve those areas. And she is just an overall great support. I hope you can find someone like that. I’m also having a 4-hour cognitive testing session this week to try to figure out what’s going on.
Hang in there, know you aren’t alone in this!
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