mace1234 welcome to Psych Central. You sound like a kind and loving person that wants to move past the limitations that you have faced in the past. I am really impressed with how mature you are in the face of the barrage of unsupportiveness you receive from your mom. You really are quite a strong person to endure all this.

I think this article may help you learn if the way your mom is acting falls into a pattern of behavior that too many children experience from their parents. If this is not accurate then read this article on building self esteem
Tips for Building Self-Esteem

25 Characteristics of Narcissistic Parents and Dysfunctional Families (Part 1) | The Psychology of Self

25 Characteristics of Narcissistic Parents and Dysfunctional Families (Part 2) | The Psychology of Self

Coping When You Have a Narcissistic Parent

5 Manipulation Tactics Narcissistic Parents Use To Control Their Adult Children

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