My body is going through the motions of life. I feel more and more secluded from life. The rush of the world continues at such a high rate of speed it is almost overwhelming. I have no desire to catch up with it or even to try. Each new day I wait and pause is this the day things will change? Is this the day things will start to become more "normal"? People around me continue to laugh and cry experience the most common emotions to their fullest extent and take it for granted. This I find irritating. Although I am not sure why perhaps out of sheer jealousy. Why can't I fly through my days on a whirl wind ..and enjoy it? I must continue on for I have no other choice, but the desire seems to be slowly desipating.