I swear down, I am going crazy. I am cycling like mad today, I have got my first appointment on monday 7th, just thinking got to hold it together until then,try and get on with work then I can maybe be my true self in front of someone that may not jusdge or think im being stupid (i hope). Got to face my manager tomorrow, the parents phoned the police when I disappeared on a manic episode last week and work got
phoned although i wasn't meant to be in. Came back feeling guilty, and depressed but still trapped, I wish people would understand it is not cause I am selfish, I can't explain, I am only trying to do what I need to do to cope with the sensations in my mind, they are uncontrollable eating away at me.
Is liithium the answer will it stabilise the rollercoaster of emotions flying around my head? because i am running out of hope