I met a guy in August / September from back when I was on OkCupid. I was actually very fond of him. I think he liked me too. I think we both had anxieties. I know I did. It seemed like I wanted to be close and he did not want that. I was excited about him. We went on one date. He kept giving me mixed messages. He didn't like talking on the phone. He only like texting. We texted a lot. I just felt like there were some red flags. Like he would say that I was the first person in a long time to make him want to be in a relationship but he also wasn't sure he wanted a relationship with me. I think he just had issues like attachment wise. I just ended up really struggling in the end because I wanted to be close. I'd say hey do you want to hang out this weekend? And he would say no. That hurt. I don't know if he was just moving slowly or if he wasn't sure about me... but it hurt and in the end I just really struggled and he ended up not even giving me the Dignity of a response. You know what? I'm not going to contact him. There may not be anybody in my life right now. But that's okay. I was just listening to a podcast about attachment styles. I have a tendency to be anxious even though it's not a disorder I don't think. I I'm really good at communicating I think... and I think I'm on a spectrum of anxious and secure. But the anxious really came out in me with him. And if I'm being honest I didn't communicate perfectly with him in the end. I kind of put it on him and just said goodbye though I was not mean. I think I have issues actually. I was so afraid of rejection that I couldn't read what he said to me in a text. I asked him to call me. He never did. He has anxiety on the phone. Maybe we just weren't a good fit. I just think after listening to the podcast on attachment styles.. it made me think I could have communicated better with him. I'm still fond of him. Oh well. Maybe I still have some work done myself to do.