Hi, this is my first time I'm posting here. If there any mistake in my post, please let me know. I'm 21 years old and I'm a university student. This is a very hard time for me. I had a relationship with a girl at the university and now it's broken. I love her more than anything because she is the reason I was happy after a long time and she loved me too no doubt about that. But she left me because I'm limiting her freedom and I always had some trust issues but she didn't have anything like that. I thought that now my life is going to be great because of her but eventually, it became worse. Now I realized what happened between us. My parents love me very much I can't explain that. But they are also limiting my life, freedom, too many rules, so I thought that is the best way to treat a girl too. But I was wrong, I lost her. Sorry about this story I want to tell everything, no one is ready to listen to me even my parents. They punished me and blamed me when I try to explain my feelings

Now I feel like I'm lost out nowhere. My parents don't listen to me, they cared about me but it's like they abandoned me. Why they didn't understand what I'm going through, they just want from me is studying. How the hell I'm going to do that. From one side I lost my girl and from the other side, I'm losing my parents. But I want both of them, I want my girl and my parents back. Now I'm losing my studies, I didn't attend any lectures or anything, I can't do those, I can't pay attention to anything, things I did for joy and happiness it's all gone, I have no interest in anything, I feel tired of being trying I'm tired of everything. Every day I dream about how I'm going to kill myself or hurt myself and what is gonna be like after I kill myself. The only relief I'm getting is when I cried until I feel tired. I took the depression quest on this site and it shows 'Severe depression' when I'm trying to talk about that with my friends they laugh at me and said ' you have no depression it's all on your mind'. There are many things I want to talk about this but I think that I already went too far when typing this post.