I am so sorry you are struggling with this. It's 320 AM here and I have been up for three hours.

There is a terrific article available for free from 2016. It is entitled: The Role of Sleep in Bipolar Disorder. The authors are Alexandra K. Gold and Louisa G. Sylvia. It talks about the issues folks with bipolar disorder face when trying to sleep. It is way, way more than just being manic or being depressed. Might be worth checking out.