Today I am feeling pretty good, but I know what is around the corner, it may be in the next 15 mins or the next hour or the next day who knows......I know for certain that I am going to fall off this "happymood" and I am worried because each time I go thru this cycling it gets worse, and so does the (SI). I am taking my meds but my Pdoc wants me to start taking Abilify, however I am unable to afford them, they are approx. $400/month. Not Sure what to do, today I feel like I can conquer the world but that will change and then I will be depressed/angry for while. I only have like a day/two days that I am happy everytime I start cycling. I can not deal with this anymore.