What am I, what are we, really? Just a coping mechanism? Some mysterious supernatural forces?

Nah, all of this isn't anything other than someone "normal", better word is average or maybe they're within the mean of society. The DID has never been what I thought made us different. The PTSD, however, yeah I really believe that.



I'm angry anymore, and that isn't like me. It's as if one of our littles has taken the burden of my sadness. Now I'm left with rage, mostly towards myself.

I'm trying to change and be better for the others, but I feel like an outcast. What do outcasts do? More than anything, I settle for staying hidden in this apartment and trying to stay invisible.

I'm eating better now, so that's something, I guess. I'm being medicated for my mood, not the psychosis, but it's a start. The dx being discussed is schizoaffective disorder, but I'm not sure I buy that. Been misdiagnosed too many times. The DID and PTSD, no doubt, just not sure of anything else.