I might be about to put my S.O. in a nursing home. Last night I was tortured with "restless leg syndrome" and got 2 hours of sleep. The pulsatile tinnitus in my left ear is banging away so loudly it's like someone striking a cymbal over and over. The house is a complete mess. I can't cope.

This is all adding up to too much. I give up. I can't cope. Plus, things are going to get even worse.

I want to tell someone that I need help. But there isn't any. No one can handle my stuff for me.

I want some doctor to feel sorry for me and give me sleeping pills. But they won't because I'm already on opioid pain medicine.

It has gotten to be too much. I'm in bed and might just stay here. My boyfriend's in the hospital. I just can't cope. All I want is escape.