Hello Vitanoctis: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

You mentioned your parents denying your depression concerns. One additional forum, here on PC, you might take a look at would be the Childhood Emotional Neglect forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/child...ional-neglect/

And then here are links to 8 articles, from Psych Central's archives. The first 3 are on depression. The next 2 are on depersonalization. Then there's a link to an article that offers a general description of childhood emotional neglect. The last 2 links are to articles that offer suggestions for surviving suicidal thoughts & talk about how they can become a coping mechanism:

Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

The Biggest Lesson I've Learned in Managing My Depression

6 Warning Signs You Suffer From Depersonalization Disorder

https://psychcentral.com/lib/10-simp...rsonalization/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/childh...he-fatal-flaw/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...idal-thoughts/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...ing-mechanism/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.