Yesterday I got more exercises from my physiotherapist. She is trying to avoid another cortisone injection. As part of my recovery (and for fun) I’m about to go for a short swim. It is a beautiful spring day. If only I wasn’t so exhausted. Stupid Fibromyalgia.

After some tidying up I’m going to my parents for the night. Will be nice to have their company. Anxiety is still plaguing me. I think it’s a reaction to reducing my Lithium. Hopefully my nervous system will calm down soon. I’m trying not to take extra benzos to cope. The benzos I take regularly are to prevent withdrawals only as I’m hoping to slowly reduce my dose once I’m settled off of Lithium.

My loved ones have noticed how stable I am and are thrilled for me. It is also clear that the years of me being terribly unwell really impacted them. Without it coming from them I feel pressure to stay stable and not cause so much stress to everyone. I know that at least in part this is out of my hands but it does motivate me to work hard on my health.