I know no family is perfect and many are far from it - and I'd normally vent this s**t to my aunt but I can't now that she's gone.

I told my parents in person Friday evening that I'd been in the Emergency Department that afternoon. I'm sitting in the room with my mom and she pretty much shows little to no concern! she tells my dad about it later. and late that night after my 2nd E.D. visit in 12 hours, I emailed my three siblings to let them know about things.

one sibling emailed me back Saturday afternoon. nothing from all the others the entire weekend! (minor exception was my dad texting to see if I could give him a ride, at 11pm Saturday - I was sleeping) I mean, I've learned to not expect much from them, but come on?!?! is something like this not concerning enough to you to warrant one minute of your time for a phone call?!

my second sibling texted me this afternoon at like 4:45pm! wow, 2 1/2 days later. still nothing from my third sibling, and I'd bet money there won't be.

then my mom calls me this evening, like an hour ago. she b**c**s me out for not answering my phone and they haven't talked to me in two days!!! first off, I had NO missed call from her today - and I know cuz I was doing phone calls most of the afternoon. second, f-you! thanks for showing your concern for me and NOT calling for three days.

and lastly, like three weeks ago I 'reserved' my mom as a potential driver for me for an appt I have on thrusday, which is a 3-hour drive there. I was thinking ahead, incase I had a reaction (granted I had NO idea this was gonna happen). at the same time, last week my mom started hounding me cuz my sibling (that third one) was looking for a babysitter the last two days of this week. I flat out told my mom I wouldn't know for sure if I needed her to drive me until afterwards (ie after Friday, meaning early this week - incase I had any delayed reactions [medical stuff]).
tonight I finally tell her it's probably a better thing if she drives me on Thursday. then b**c**s me out about waiting so long cuz my sibling still needs to find a sitter. I give in to all the pressure and at the end tell her to just go there and I'd drive myself! and 10 minutes later, I text my sibling saying if they can't find a sitter, that mom could go there and I'd drive myself!

I am sooooo glad that I am on the bottom of this dam ladder - that everyone else comes first. that for only the third time in two years, I 'reserved' you as a driver and you want to change 'last minute' on me. um, screw everyone else. I'm pretty sure that my health and safety comes before the need of a babysitter for two days!!!!! OR am I wrong??

this s**t is exactly why I don't tell you about my health appts - cuz all you do is b**c* about things. god I miss my aunt..........

and for crying out loud, I am now almost talking myself into rescheduling my Thursday appt, just to end all this s**t. but I don't want to wait another month for this appt.....