Checking in, it's been an odd day.. dare I say mixed... maybe
The afternoon sky and outside was beautiful to me.. it's very fall where I am, which we don't get to see much of every year... it seemed so surreal at times. I have peaceful not real moments, if that even makes sense.. time eludes me too. I also, put myself up for a project at work, .. which will be ok ! I somewhat asked myself wtf am I doing, but I prepped a lot today for an easier future. (Hopefully). And it's something simple.

I noted some earlier occurrences today that I rather not go into atm here.. but very off... and not "ok".
I had my contagious laugh going on today too...
Now I'm a bit awake but I'll try to meditate tonight .. last night I was up and down.

I need to start planning for holidays myself ... but more on plans of keeping busy and safe. I don't want to be mixed again, I may have no Choice but I want to plan for limited triggers.. I am taking time off from work, dog watching at some point too, which I like to see the dogs they're my friends as corny as that may sound.
I think yesterday?My living sister texted me, very kind and encouraging... I'm leery still, me triggering her or her to me. It's delicate but am glad she reached out. We should meet again.

I can't believe it's only Monday night for me atm. This week at work is busy for me too.. and yet, I'm going off into "la la land " at times. Oi